Sexuality gay stratet or bi or trans?

I have been living in a world of what the ##########. I found my self wanting to be with guys and love to have that hot woman on my arms. And at the sametime i think i jest dont belong in this body/ i blame outhers yes and myself what should i do. I'm lost and what to know what to do. i have been wearing womans clouse on and off for the past 15 years and don't reay know why I do that. am i hopless